I remember the day she moved next
door.
My mother said, “Don’t stare, Peter. I know she doesn’t look like you do, but
there’s nothing wrong with her. There’s nothing… she’s just different. She doesn’t process things the same way that
you and your sisters do, but that doesn’t make her different, okay?”
“But you just said—”
My mom rolled her eyes. “Forget what I said. You need to be nice, okay? Her name is Eden.” She laid her hands flat over the front of my
shirt as if pressing it for wrinkles. “Are
you gonna be nice?”
I nodded and took her hand as she
practically dragged me across the thick grass toward two people. One was a man with bright red hair. He was probably the same age as my dad with
legs the color of baking flour, sitting inside of a sandbox across from a girl
about my age. Her hair was dark brown and
curly—so very curly—cut close to her head in short ringlets tipped with
sand.
She rocked back and forth and
stared at the man, clapping her hands together until he broke the spell by
pointing to us.
“Eden, look,” he said in a
near-whisper. “Do you remember
Jean? From yesterday?”
The girl looked at my mom, slowly
taking her in, before nodding. “Jean,”
she said softly to her father.
“That’s right. And this is her son. His name is Peter. Can you say Peter?”
She looked over again, her eyes
having trouble focusing on my face. When
she found them, she gave me a gentle, lazy smile. “Peter,” she said.
“That’s right. Do you think that maybe Peter could sit in
the box with you?”
She shook her head. “No, I don’t think so,” she said calmly.
“Oh, come on,” the red-haired man
said jovially before standing. “He’s not
gonna bite you. He’s just going to help
you build a castle. I bet Peter is great
at building castles.” He looked over at
me and smiled widely.
I wasn’t sure what he wanted me
to say, so I just nodded once and looked up at my mother.
I was supposed to be nice. I was supposed to be nice.
“Eden,” the red-haired man
repeated. “Can Peter sit here with you?”
“Peter,” she said quietly.
“That’s right. Peter.
Peter, do you want to sit here?”
I didn’t. I really didn’t want to sit there with this
girl I didn’t know and build anything. I
wanted to sit in my room and listen to my new record. I mean, did this Eden girl even have any records? It was too hot out and she had sand in her
hair and she wasn’t even bothering to try to get it out and… her dad didn’t
even notice. Or if he did, he didn’t
even say anything and… I was supposed to be nice.
“Yeah. Okay,” I said.
I took a seat on the hot sand
across from her and picked up a small rake and a few cups. There was a little bucket of water next to
the box and a few shovels. Eden stared
at me as I started to dig.
Before long, our parents were
gone and I was stuck there with the curly-haired girl with the gap between her
teeth who kept repeating my name every time I packed the cup with sand and
dumped it over to add to what was quickly becoming a castle.
Sometimes she added a clap, but
she always said my name, even if I was doing nothing other than tolerating the
miserable day and her existence.
Even if I was just being nice.
But the next day, I came
back. We built another castle—well, I did and she watched—until it was time
for dinner. Eden was quiet that day,
scratching behind her ear a lot and moaning a few times. I’d asked my mom about it when I got home,
but she just used the same excuse she had before—that she was “different” and
that she didn’t “process things the same way” that I did.
Fifty-seven days, I went to that
sandbox.
On the fifty-eighth day of summer,
she was gone.
The red-haired man had sent her
to go live with her mother. My mom explained
to me that sometimes grownups made decisions that were hard for kids to
understand, but that I would get it when I was older.
I’m still waiting.